I was trying to think of a name for a blog. I had always thought if I ever did start a blog I would call in "Playing House", alas, by the time I decided to start a blog the name was taken (and not in that 'well I don't even know her kind of way'... I know her...)
So I was searching... and then one day my almost 2 year old, who was trying so desperately to go potty in the toilet like her big sister felt her self 'need to go'. So she took her diaper off in an attempt to put 'it' where 'it' should be.... obviously she didn't make it. There is no toilet in the playroom.
It's not one of my prouder parenting moments. I was so ticked off that she would take her clean diaper off and then poop on the carpet. I didn't yell, but I don't think I was kind either. Still the irony of a clean diaper and poop on the floor was not lost on me, so I grabbed the camera and took a picture. Just so I could show Cori how ridiculous life can be.
Then I knelt down and clean up her poop.
And as I cleaned I realized- This is life. A clean diaper and poop on the floor.
She did her best. She knew what was right. She wanted so badly to please me. To do what was right and grown up and would bring praise. She did her best, and her best made a mess. But nothing so terrible it couldn't be cleaned up.
But her diaper was clean. She miss judged, through lack of experience, the timing of things, but her diaper was clean. Her intention was not to poop on the floor. Her intention was to do something mature and responsible.
How often I am just like my sweet girl? How often are you? Sometimes, despite our most carefully laid plans and best intentions we make a terrible mess of things. Because we're just people. The majority of us I believe are trying to do our best... and sometimes we muck things up. We say something back handed, we do something thoughtless, we forget something important....
Sometimes life is just messy, but that doesn't mean that it's not good.
Some of the biggest messes I've ever found myself in have lead to the greatest lessons, which in turn have lead to the greatest joys.
I hope the picture I paint of my family in this blog isn't one of perfection. I hope you see the pictures with a messy house in the background, the poems pleaing for children to sleep, weeds in my garden and the deepest desires of my heart to make a little less mess of things...
That is my intention because I think that is life- doing our best to create a place of peace, joy and love even though, sometimes, it's messy.
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